I should be out doing my long-ish Wednesday run right now. Instead, I just got back from Rite-Aid after clearing the store out of Advil Cold & Sinus, Nyquil, and tissues. I’ve always had a really strong immune system, but over the past several months, I’ve had a lot of nagging little illnesses. A few people have suggested that maybe that’s because Hartsfield-Jackson International Airport has become my second home and I’ve spent too much time breathing in that delightful re-circulated air on planes. Perhaps they are right.
I think this latest cold – which seemed to come out of nowhere but is quite a doozy – is a signal that I need to slow down and give myself a break. I have always struggled with perfectionist tendencies. It’s a double-edged sword. That part of my personality helps motivate me to achieve a lot, but it also makes me put a lot of unnecessary pressure on myself.
I’m really not good at being sick and taking it easy. True confession: I seriously just started cleaning out my refrigerator, because when I sit still and try to rest, it’s hard for me to quiet my mind. I just start worrying about all the things I’m not getting done – in work, in running, and in my long to-do list. On one level, I know that’s a really counterproductive approach – that if I would just take it easy – really take it easy – for a little while , that I’ll get back on my feet much sooner. But it’s extremely hard for me to just shut it off.
So this is my cry for help! By writing this and putting it out there publicly, I know I can hold myself accountable to lay on the couch with my box of tissues and watch some mindless TV. At least for tonight.
Hope to be out there running again soon, but I follow the “below the neck” rule – if I have symptoms below the neck (coughing, chest cold, etc.) – no running.
Miles run this week: 3; total miles for the year: 92