I should be out doing my long-ish Wednesday run right now. Instead, I just got back from Rite-Aid after clearing the store out of Advil Cold & Sinus, Nyquil, and tissues. I’ve always had a really strong immune system, but over the past several months, I’ve had a lot of nagging little illnesses. A few people have suggested that maybe that’s because Hartsfield-Jackson International Airport has become my second home and I’ve spent too much time breathing in that delightful re-circulated air on planes. Perhaps they are right.

I think this latest cold – which seemed to come out of nowhere but is quite a doozy – is a signal that I need to slow down and give myself a break. I have always struggled with perfectionist tendencies. It’s a double-edged sword. That part of my personality helps motivate me to achieve a lot, but it also makes me put a lot of unnecessary pressure on myself.

I’m really not good at being sick and taking it easy. True confession: I seriously just started cleaning out my refrigerator, because when I sit still and try to rest, it’s hard for me to quiet my mind. I just start worrying about all the things I’m not getting done – in work, in running, and in my long to-do list. On one level, I know that’s a really counterproductive approach – that if I would just take it easy – really take it easy – for a little while , that I’ll get back on my feet much sooner.  But it’s extremely hard for me to just shut it off.

So this is my cry for help! By writing this and putting it out there publicly, I know I can hold myself accountable to lay on the couch with my box of tissues and watch some mindless TV. At least for tonight.

Hope to be out there running again soon, but I follow the “below the neck” rule – if I have symptoms below the neck (coughing, chest cold, etc.) – no running.

Miles run this week: 3; total miles for the year: 92

 

5 Responses to Running on Empty

  1. Marcy Kirk says:

    Awwww, chill and feel better so it doesn’t turn into something worse….like the stomach virus or whatever Ashley has had for the past 4 days!!! Fever for the first 2 and now just the not bieng able to keep anything down or in. It has wiped her out, can’t seem to get enough sleep. I want to just hug her and make her all better but I don’t want it! I feel like a horrible mom : (….although I have been bringing her water, Gatorade, smoothies, (homemade) ginger ale, saltines, broth…etc. and don’t complain when she can’t drink it or eat it…
    Take it easy, you deserve a “do NOTHING” day, a good book or movie is recommended. Meaning “mindless”, a romance novel or chick flick and nothing having to do with running! : )
    Love Ya!

  2. Nicole says:

    I hope you feel better soon Janice! I think you are right about sometimes we just need to listen to our bodies. Your body is definitely telling you to slow down and take it easy so it can heal itself. Sometimes we need to rest to make us stronger. I hope you enjoyed a night of relaxation and are feeling a bit better today!! Love reading your blog….keep on writing and running….love your honesty as it really helps me to keep on running even when I don’t want to!

  3. Grandmom says:

    So sorry you’re under the weather Janice, but take the time to rest up and just be lazy. As Aunt Marcy said, read a book, watch movies on TV and just be good to yourself. When I wasn’t feeling well, I saw so many movies and just relaxed. Don’t worry about the refrigerater, trust me, it will wait for you and so will everything else. Just take care of yourself. Love you so much!!!

  4. Lindsay says:

    Sadly, I am very, very good at laying around, and less good at running and cleaning my fridge, and having a career.

  5. Debbie Becker says:

    Hi Janice,
    I am soooo far behind and just read your last 4 entries! I am sure you heard about our tea room from your mom. It seems to take “a month” out of our lives 🙂 Anyway….it was Feb 23rd that you wrote you were sick so I am hoping you are much better by now..as it is the 27th today. I totally get it because I am sick too. Just for the past 3-4 days. I HATE being sick and HATE sitting on the couch. I am ok on the couch if I am doing something at the same time. Just not good at sitting and “just” watching TV. LOVE reading your blog and sorry I have been away for a while. I will be better in March. Good luck to you if you are in fact, UP & RUNNING!
    Love ya,
    Debbie

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